Pirates of the Caribean Dead Men's Chest....

NOTE: This contains spoiler of POC 2, so..if you haven't watch..better don't read it...^_^

Well, today went to Leisure Mall's GSC to watch POC with my sisters!!! Mwahaha!! I finally got the chance to go for movie without objection from my parents! ^_^ And I don't have to pay for the ticket...(Thanks to my wonderful sister!) The movie was overall nice. It was creative and funny! Love it so much! All the scenes were wonderful. Watching Johnny Depp being the sexy Jack Sparrow..Well, you can't blame me for looking at hot guys right?:P The part that really make me love Jack more is the last part where he actually charge into the octopus...He looked...he looked so....courages! Nearly swoon out loud! I don't believe that he is dead though...He is still so very alive! Actually aniticpating POC 3...It seems to be getting nicer by every new episodes...I just hope that the quality doesn't deteorate after they got all the credit of producing a great movie...I would hate it so much if the movie becomes boring and meaningless....Hoping for the best of POC 3!! Long live Captain Jack Sparrow! :P

Note: The spoiler is actually on the paragraph on top, so it is safe to read this paragraph aclready..:P

Before the movie we actually went for shopping and my sisters somehow manage to find those accesories store and then....Well, the shopping starts...My sister actually bought 3 of us 3 beautiful necklace! It was nice! Love it soo much! But too bad is that the necklace that I choose has a pandan in blue colour again...-_-lll Somehow I just can't make myself to choose other colour pandan...Blue just...seem so right for me to buy it....Maybe it gives me the feeling of calmness? But, almost all of my necklace are in blue colour...Kinda like a union of blue already...-_-lll But nonetheless that I love that necklace..:P

After the movie, me and my sisters went different ways. They went to buy the birthday cake for my youngest sister while I loiter to popular... I was going to popular for 2 missions.
Mission 1 : Go and find Harry Potter ans the HBP hard cover book and MAYBE go and buy it before it is too late...
Mission 2 : Go to popular and ....well....stock up...It's been a while since I buy chinese novel already...

As I steped into Popular, my leg took control of me and I went to the english book department and my heart was yelling "Oh no!!Don't go there!" Though my heart was screaming hysteriacally, my leg still lead me to the department and at there, I actually nearly wept...Because looking at the books that you want most but cannot afford it is the most torturing that can be done! I stared at the books that I longed for these few months and well, touch it, and left there as quickly as possible since I know that my purse was actually bleeding when it sense that I nearly took the book to the counter...
I repeated the words to myself "CP, you must control! But one book and there goes your RM 40! RM 40!! That is a lot of money you know? Save the money! You are broke! Remember??"
Well, repeated the words for a few times and found HBP!
I saw it! But I wanted to slumped myself on the floor and cry my lungs out! The hard cover HBP is gone! All of them are paper bags!! DARN!!! I am still too late! Sob...

While weeping in my heart, I went to the comic shop to hunt for comics or novels....And there it is! Shinning brighter than other books! My favourite author's novel! This time, my brain was malfunctioning (Actually everytime when I buy novels or comics, it will shut down by it self...-_-lll) I took 3 of them and rush to the counter and pay for it...RM 12...My savings...T_T

Well, no need to cry now...I am just pathetic..Darn it....But, still happy that I get to buy some of the books to stock-up my little cupboard...

Sometimes I really wonder how will my parents reacts when they accidentally found out that i have hide most of my novels in the cupboard...I think they will kill me...Since....I think there are already 150 of them piling inside there....Maybe next time I can do little business of renting my novels to get back the money that I have used..sob....

And one thing....feel like knocking my head...I actually didn't do any homework...Chemistry is like sitting in a bullet train and the teacher is teaching way very fast....I just finish one chapter's excercise and aiming for the other and on that day itself, another chapter was done! 0.0 I nearly cry and hide in the corner..Now I am 2 chapters behind schedule and i believe if I do not finish my homework this weekend..Well, astalavista babe....I am going to drop off from the bullet train and drop dead..And there are no more maths or physic train to pick me up already..since....Both the train are already way ahead from chem...Sob..CP...GOOOOOO!!! Do your bloody homework..Sob...

BTW, by the end of this month, STPM is 109 days from 31st of july....Bon appatite my friends...Sob..*hides in the corner...*

Thank goodness!

Actually, my dad went to the hospital last thursday. Because he was complaning that he was having ringing sounds in his head and he always feel dizzy...

He went to the hospital and came back and told us what happen...
"I went in to the doctor's room and I saw him flipping through my details and said 'You are 53'."
"It is like he is discriminating my age!"
"After doing a few test, the doctor say 'There are only 2 possibilities. Is either you have a minor strok or you have one in a million chance a brain tumor.'"
I sat there and said nothing...It's just impossible! How can he have minor strok or brain tumor? He is just only 53!
At that moment I was very scare. I fear that there is only 2 option for my father to choose. But I would rather cheat myself that he still have 3 options rather than 2 of these.
He went for various check up and today, he finally went to the MRI. They got home.
I was relieved that there is no tumor! Thank God! But still, we are not sure what happen..since all of us were overwhelmed by the news that he is ok and perfectly well....
I was afraid that I won't have the chance to repay him and tell him that although sometimes I don't really like the way he scold me..(For my own good actually...) I still love him.
He is the best father that I can have..Though sometimes we quarell, but I believe that he is still the best.
He pass his knowledge to us, tell us the history of various country, telling us about his new yet weird diet that can lat him live longer...
I just hope that he will be ok...I cannot stand if there is anything happen to him. I will be devastated....
Ever since the death of my grandmother, I finally feel the sorrow of the person that you love left you behind without letting you have the chance to tell them how much you love and cherish them.
I hope that this time I can make him proud. Though I know I will not get any A in my STPM but i will try my best to at least get B and get into the university with pride....I really do hope i can do it..No, I cannot hope for it. I must do it...

I have been tagged by my granson~~

Three names you go by> Chin Chuan Ping (NOTE: Is pIng. Whoever writes pEng, be careful...I will rip you off....)

>Totorodubelle (Wonderful name created by a whole bunch of friends of mine...Wanna know why? haha~cause one day, we were discussing about christian name and they have decided that I am more suitable to be called as double. But, luckily, the angelic susu helped me out and say "How about dubelle? Sounds nice...." Well, it is nice and funny...therefore, I accepted the name rather than double...:P

>Ping? My family members call me Ping. Including my younger sisters...Since I am in the middle....I am not used to ppl call me jie jie...It's so....GELI!!!><

Three parts of your heritage> Being a chinese. Be proud of it! (What my father says usually..:D)

>Hot temper. A wonderful heritage from my father. Guys having this kind of attitude may get to find a GF. But as for a girl...I am so going to be a spinster..:P

>really soft hair. Heritag from me father too....^_^

Three things you can't stand> People actually manja me. especially my sisters....Ew...

>People who are very fake. Sometimes you feel like punching their teeth out. God! Please don't act that you are so damn good when you weren't!

>People who actually act cute although they are already not in the cute stage anymore. Please!Don't make people vomit k? You are not cute at all!

Three things that scare you> Ghost! But sometimes still get dragged by my friends to the cinema to watch...Will cover my ears till the end of the movie...:P

>Fail my important exams?God..touch wood!

>Not being able to eat the great foods...Ah~eating food is such a luxury...with the food in your mouth, slowly melting in it....OMG..I am so hungry now...

Three drinks>Milo!!!:D Favourite drink!

>Coca Cola. Addicted to it already..:P

>Fruit juice~Prefer orange juice...don't want those artificial one!!

Three of your everyday essentials (besides common human needs)> To be with my 68 anime husbands

>Novels!!!No matter is it chinese or english. I love both of it!

>TV!!!have to wash my eyes by watching leng chai in the TV...sigh...

Three things you are wearing right now> My pajamas...with a very big Tora Panda on it...^_^

>a rubber band....have to tie my hair mar...

>ear rings...never actually took it off?

Three of your favourite movies>Pirates of the Carribean!

>Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. (I only like this particular movie...the others are not that good...

>Lord of the rings! Love the last 2 movies...the first one a bit boring....

Two truths and a lie> I actually torture the 2 gold fish when I was young...feeling so guilty now..
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>I cannot stop my anime and novel addict...Never ever...

>I am now sitting on a lap of a hot guy.....:P

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you>Physical ah....erm..good looking? Without too much pimples gua....

>Having the broad shoulder that I can lean on?

>Having the most charming smile!!! (Jin Zhai Yuan!!!ARGH~~!!><)

Three things you want in a relationship> Trust. wanna go and find other woman? Can..I will make you suffer before you leave me....:P Mwahahhaah!!

>He have to love me~~~~

>A guy who understands me and give me his shoulder to cry on when I am upset....:D

Three of your favourite hobbies>watching anime, Spoting really handsome guys and make them my husbands

>Reading novels~~plus really nice children's story book! You have to feel the magic in you mar~

>Loitering around, feeling that going out alone sometimes are really nice...^_^

Three careers you are considering, or have considered> Engineer! I have to be one..or else I am priceless already..I will be the parasite of my parents...:P

>Writer~~~~Writer~~~Writer!!!

>Can I leave this blank? Umm.....ok.....how about.....being a teacher? But I don't have the patience wor...

Three places you want to go on a vacation> Seaside!!I wanna go to really nice seaside!!!Long time no go already...

>Japan~The place where I can go and visit all of my husbands...:P

>Taiwan...Centre of novels............hard to resists the temptation...

Three things you want to do before you die> Open a bookstore fill with comics, novels, other kind of books and making people feel satisfy when they are inside there

>Get a real handsome guy to become my BF? Nah~I prefer that I got a whole lot of people that I love surrounding me and catching up the old days.....I can imagine it when we are all old citizens and we will have to sit on wheel chairs to meet each other...:D

>fill my house with books...No mater what books...as long as I can read them and feel happy bout it...:D

Five songs I know all the words to> None? Honestly! I don't actually memorise all the lyrics...

Five things I would do with 100 million dollars>Donate it to the gold fish!!><>

>Buy lots and lots and lots of books!!!!

>Buy lots and lots and lots of things that are anime related......:P

>Give it to my family members..(childrens?Maybe...but I prefer that they don't become brats by having rich parents..I will used all the money before they can lay hands on it~~~:P)

>Maybe charity organisation? (I rarely do charity..this is just to cover up my guilty-ness!><)

Five things I would never wear> Bikini!!!:P (That is for the really nice body shape punya orang wear one~:P)

>Clothes that really doesn't fit me and makes me feel like an idiot

>Dress with irritating lace...Itchy...

>er....cant think of any now...:P

Five favourite TV shows > Malcom in the Middle!
>LOST!
>Prison Break!
>CSI!
>Desperate housewives
>Las Vegas
Five bad habits> Scold people without checking whether are they innocent or not

>Hate somebody and show it clearly....

>Like to curse

>Like to be rebellious;...

>Like to.............take husbands without control?

Five biggest joys a little futuristic > Able to become a writer and people actually like my stories! ^_^

>Being surrounded by people that I love and people that loves me too :D

>Able to give birth to a healthy baby?

>Able to be success in life

>Able to lead a peaceful life

Five people I want to do the same list>Susu!!You are on! :D

>Feli~~~~

>My first wife! Tomato~~~:P

>Ein wan dear...that is if you come to my blog!

>eh..leave blank lar~~~:D

Ghost, Treasure hunt,celebrating birthday...It's a very eventful week..

Today went to Sri Ampang's IU day. Usually I am lazy to go to all this functions. But this IU day is special. This IU day is prepared by my friends by their self and they have to do everything by themselve since the number of members are quite small. But eventhough the atmosphere was not as hot as that day I went to the four school Chinese Society Gathering, the IU day was superb. Like what my friend said, "Quality over Quantity" The IU day, I have to admit, it's quality is way much better than the four school gathering.

Comparing the crowd of these 2 gatherings, no doubt that the Four School Gathering had outnumbered the IU day in Sri Ampang. But the quality of the entertainment was way better. Sri Ampang's IU day fashion show was so cool! I personally love that fashion show more than the other entertainment.

The theme of the IU day was Halloween. After all the rollcall and singings, the programme started with a sketch. The sketch was short. I prefer to talk about the fashion show...So, sorry, I got to elaborate the entertainment that I love right? :P

The hall was dark and dimly lighted. The PA system was wonderful. Having all those eerie sound effects and everyone was looking around, anticipating the fashion show, expecting some tall models, with trendy clothes, walking the cat walk. I was tired of searching, so I just sat there, looking at the stage. All of a sudden, all of them slip in with their costume on. They slip in through the back door. They did not come in one by one. Instead of one at a time, there were at least 5 of them at one time. All of them were wearing the costumes of various ghost and phantom. They were lurking in the hall, walking all around and I have to admit at that time I was a bit afraid. It feels like you are surrounded by a whole lot of ghost and you have no where to run to.

The 2 of my favorite ghost is Shu Wen and Khai Jing. The make-up on their face and their facial expression really freaked me out. I can still remember when I saw KJ sliding in. She was holding an umbrella, covering most of her face. She was very those ancient chinese clothes. Red in colour and I have to say that the clothe was beautiful...^_^. But that thought only lasted for a minute. The next minute, she was gliding towards our row and took up her umbrella. OMG!! Her face was white as a chalk, red-rimmed eyes, with a small lips, covered with a very very red lipstick. I doubt that anyone can imagine how scary she looked......She is like a real ghost among the fake ghosts! God....I nearly shocked to death and I think i will have nightmares if I do not know her. I wil think that I somehow had the sixth sense, and seeing a really scary ghost, with her eyes piercing through you, as if you have owe her something very important and it is time for her to take her revenge.....

The next one was Shu Wen. She is the ghost that appears in "The Ring" a.k.a "The Phone" She actually crawl out from the stage! While everyone was overwhelmed by the ghost under, I have never expected that a ghost will suddenly appear from the stage! She sat there and keep on combing her hair....The scariest part is when we went to the exhibition, she was in there and the whole group if us were trying to make her laugh, but amazingly she still stare at us with those vengeful eyes...She totally got the essence of being the ghost in The Ring....At the end of the exhibition, someone asked me to look at my back. I turned my back, thought that there were some cute ghost at there, trying to scare me. And there stood Shu Wen! Bloody hell! She nearly got my heart out from my throat! Luckily that the gym was bright! Or else I will really cry at that time...Shu Wen, you are such a great actress....You really manage to scare the wits out of me! ><

Although we had all the fun, I have one sad thing to say...My handphone rosak already!!! SOB!!><>< My handphone!!No one can hear what I am speaking and here goes my 24 month handphone.....Sobs......

XXX

On wednesday, the MPTE have decided to have form 6 sports on that day. All of us thought that it was a MUST to go and play with the juniors and we have to bring our clothes to school to change. But it turns out that you can choose not to go....-_-lll Since we had our clothes already, we have decided to go and have fun with all the juniors.

After all the hush and push, we finally started out reasure hunt at 2 o'clock. There were 12 checkpoint to go to. And every checkpoint we can only stay for 12 minutes. Our first task was the hardest! My classmate actually situated the checkpoint at somewhere really deserted. When we finally found him, he was wearing the doctor's glove, with a smug on his face. At that moment I really wanted to skip that checkpoint...He looked so damn psychotic with that glove on his hand...-_-lll And my prediction was correct. Because of his checkpoint, I was scolded by Nicole. we actually used up 24 minutes to do the task....Which means we were falling back. And I have to say that all of our group members are a whole bunch of people who never actually do a strategy....They just see what is in the list and run all along the school....-_-llll The item they were searching was near to each other but they HAVE to go and search for the items in order....I rolled my eyes and told them to find those item in this building only then proceed into the other, but I doubt that they actually listen to me. which made me have to run along with them...-_-lll Bloody hell....

After skipping the second task, (Sorry for snatching the clue from you dear grandson!><) we were finally in the same pace with other groups and run along the whole form 6 block... I have to admit that I was already old. At every checkpoint, I have to sit down and take a breath...Luckily that every checkpoint were guarded by my friends. So, I actually get to nib something to eat from them..:D At the checkpoint where WP, Aaron and Rachel was guarding, I saw the opportunity for revenge! that bllody aaron actually splash water on me before the game started! Therefore, I waited until the game was over and took a pail of water and got near. Unfortunately he saw my "weapon" and took WP's water bottle. WP was the victim actually...She actually beg that I don't play with that Aaron because that bottle was her only source of water. Since I am not as evil as that Aaron, I put down the pail adn declare peace...But, at a swift, he took the pail! ARGH!!! I saw him wanted to splash me, so I run like hell and out of the place...Darn...I didn't get my revenge at all!

The treasure hunt lasted till 5 o'clock and it has exceed the time for me to go back. I quickly led my team into the badminton court and slip away. Had to take LRT. Because I know that if I take the one hour bus back home, I am already skinned by now. Arrive home at 6 o'clock. Exhausted, but had fun.

Well, Nephew....you really did it well! All hail to the almighthy pig-Zhu Huey! :P

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On tuesday was Hui Jin's 19 th birthday. We celebrated her birthday by buying a cake and celebrated in the class. Like last week, there were havoc in the class! people bullying each other by smugging creams and things..(I don't actually have the desire to know what it that THING....-_-lll), some of them just sitting at there, chatting...I was lucky that I was out of the war and went back early...:D Anyway, happy belated birthday Hui Jin...

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And of course....13th of July....It's milk's birthday! Like I have wished, I wished that you can have a safe journey to England and have the opportunity to stalk those welsh while you are at there and make sure that you come back like the usual pakage of susu that we send to England...:P Gonna miss you gal....Well, I will try to come out when it is the parting....I am really anticipating to see you oh! Btw, when are you going to england? If can, I can make sure that I get to go and see you before you are exported...:D

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The horror of haze has come back...I have predicted that I am going to sick, with all those foreign particles on the air and guess what, I am sick now...curse those who actually make the haze problem become more and more serious. And I swear to god that I will curse those who do open burning....CURSE YOU!!!!

I know. I should be dating with ancient great scientist now. Flipping through the pages of my text book, noting every theory that they have assumed to make us suffer. While flipping the pages, I will have the opportunity to have a look at my "Lovers" and have the great feeling to occasionally drawing mustaches, bears, scars on their faces. I am so sick...-_-lll But what to do? I just can't concentrate. I am also wondering why. After saying that I will love my book and love the knowledge that I am learning now...I just can't look at them for too long..Looks like I have to get use to them as soon as I can right? Sigh...

Though I did my homework, but most of the time, I loiter in my house. Sometimes bullying the little chunk of meatball(Youngest sister), sometimes ordering the the two younger sister to help me to message (which rarely happens), sometimes switch on the television and watch really dumb movies. -_-lll I am wasting my life usefully......

well, the good news is that my best friend that went to China to study have come back and she is going to stay until 31st of august! Wonderful...need to plan out when I am suppose to meet her...

Thursday, 6th of July was my friend's birthday. Sara the w*****melon...:P We bought a huge Chocalate Walnut cake for her and celebrated her birthday with the rest of the classmates.

I think I am getting older. I actually had fun smudging creams on her face and chasing other people to try to leave a mark of cream onthem. But after 3 minutes of chasing, I actually feel exhausted and I nearly dozed off....-_-lll Really getting older! Well, that not all of it. We have decided to go to have lunch with the birthday girl.

Initially we thought there will be a whole lot of us going. But it turns out that only 6 of us going to eat....Well, i think initially at least there are 10 people going to join. But like usual, one person waiting for the other person, the other person waiting for the other person, and the other person having their own sweet time torturing the juniors....-_-lll

With my usual patience all rub off, I toke my bag and walked away.....Hell, if you are going to wait for so many people, I doubt that we can go out the school gates by 3 o'clock! At least somebody have to get going right? We went to grand vessel to have lunch.

The brilliant Ee Sheng actually took us to grand vessel using the long way...-_-lll Nearly out of breath when reach Grand Vessel. When I climbed up to the restaurant, I nearly weep. For they have wonderful Air-conds!!><

Not long after that, another group of friends came and joined us. Since I am getting older and without extra stamina, I ate my black pepper pork rice quietly and nearly slept.....Just like what ee lian said "We are just like pigs. When hugry, we wanna sleep. When we are full, we STILL want to sleep." :P

Stayed at there till 4 o'clock and that is the limit! Have to get back early just to save my head from being removed from the neck.

Bought a wonderful picture collection kinda book for Sara. I like those pictures!! Hoping that she likes it! ^_^

Btw, had a great time reading 'Sir Thursday' by Garth Nix. He is such a brilliant writer! Once again, I was drawn into the wonderful world that he had created and had the fun reading the whole book! It is sooooo nice! Recomending it to you guys! Have to thank Ee Lian for recomending these books to me! They are just so nice that you cannot bare a minute without reading it! ^_^

Anticiapting Lady Friday now.....Can't wait for it to come out!! Grr!!><

Last but not least.....World Cup is coming to an end....And all I have to say is....

FRANCE! GO AND KICK THE ITALIAN'S ASS AND WIN THE WORLD CUP!!ROAR!!

going to camp at the living room to watch this last match!! ^_^

I will survive...

Took my maths paper at thursday. As I have expected, it was awful. Though it was awful, i didn't shed a tear at all. Maybe i had the wonderful encouragement from my friend, Feli, which gave me the courage to move on. Still Loving you!!><

After getting the result, i did not cry nor being moody. Well, maybe a little, since I was worry that how am I suppose to send this bad news to my father. Instead of crying, I laugh like usual, bullying my friend sitting next to me and feeling sleepy after tensing up for so many nights.

And then it was Biology period. The bio students went to the lab to do their disecting session (poor rats...) and all 5 of us, the ohysic students, stayed in the classroom. While i was talking to my friend, one of my friend turned his face and asked.
"How did you score for your maths?"
"Awful."
"Come on lar, be specific lar!"
"XX" (sorry, still not prepared to say the marks...it still hurts...)
"And why are you still cheerful? Shouldn't you be crying?"
"........."Stare.
"Ya mar...if you cry only then I cry."
"Why?How much did you get?"
"XX" (his marks is why better than mine...but not satisfying for him though..)
"......."Stares.
I turned my back and started to do my homework. Ignore! ><

Overall, I take this as a lesson to me to try harder and time is a factor that makes me sometimes go crazy or moody.
But what the heck, this is life.

So...Now waiting for Pirate of the Carribeans. Going to watch it as soon as it is release!! ><
Dead men's chest...Here I come!

I am really greatful to have you as a Friend!

.I actually decided not to post this. But after chatting with my friend, I found out that I am more willing to spilled it out. Last Thursday, my math teacher finally give out the papers. The paper we got was mathematic P2, which was the paper which can help us to top-up our marks on P1.
When i got my paper, I found out that I have failed. I don't know why, but I am just too numb to cry or say anything.

My reaction is just like this picture on top. I have no feeling or thought or what so ever. I feel like...nothing. Even when my friend said "If you want to cry, cry lar.." I still don't have the moist in my eyes. I don't know what happened, I just feel nothing at all.

I went back home and decided not to tell my father about this yet. He got a lot of problems lately and I don't want him to know that I failed my maths and got all heat up. I kept quiet and went back upstairs.

At night, like usual, i have to go down and sit in front of my homeworks for an hour for him to have a look and for him to know i am learning. I finished on of my test and I gave it to him. All of a sudden he said "I will make a nobody to somebody. And you will be the black horse of St.John." The pride glowing out from his face makes me start to feel guilty.

The black horse of St. John?? I wonder. I really wonder how will he react if he knows I failed my math. Though my friends say that we should have a look at P1 only then we make final conclusions, but I am sure if P2 I can't score, how is it possible for me to score for P1 which is more difficult??

Anyway, kept this as a secret from my family members for 3 days already. Whenever i go out I still feel guilty. And I tried hard not to think of it, but I believe that I am lost now. Although i have no feelings, I know that I am lost, but I don't know where to start off, to search myself, to search the old me back, enjoying study.

Well, I really need to thank my friend feli! She is an angel! She actually gave me advice, helped me to search for myself. Why do I study? I study for myself?Or do I study for my parents? Am I stressing myself too much until I am not sure what I am doing already?Am I lossing my confidence after all these years? She really give me great advice. And she nearly made me cry because the feeling of uncertainty, insecurity were rushing to my heart. It is a tear of feeling being cared and the feeling that a burden has at least being less. But, I controled myself...I don't want my family members know that I am crying...You can know how busybody family can be...-_-lll

Anyway, I found out that she is right. I have lost my confidence. I have lost the feeling of feeling satisfy for finishing my work while understanding it. I have lost the aim of my life. I have lost all the entertainment that I should control while enjoying it.

Now, I am taking her advice to try to be confidence and believe that I can make it. This is the only second chance that I have. I cannot screw it up because I am being weak. I have to stand strong. If she can make it through with a hell lot of pressure more than mine, why can't I? I have to start to search the feeling of loving my books again. Finding the satisfying feeling after obtaining a knowledge. I need to do it. I have to be strong. I cannot just stay and march on the same spot forever.

Chuan Ping! You must do it! ><

I have decided to locked all my novels away. I have decided to let the downoad-ing anime task pass to my younger sister and take it over after my STPM (I won't want her to be addicted like me and have a hard time going through it like me...) Well, I need a more firm concentration. I still buy novels, but they are going to stay in my cupboard until I finally achieve my goal. That is, at least get a B+ for all of my subjects this final term. Then, I will move up to A- or A in STPM. Though it is kinda rush, but I am hoping that this 4 months can let me have the time to change, to love the knowledge I am learning now.

I am sorry if I made anyone of you worried. Especially for milky ann and Feli. You two are the best friend that I can ever have. You two stand beside me whenever I am in trouble and give me really wise advice. I feel lucky to have both of you as my friends. Both as mature as they can be and can be as funny as the time comes for them to relax and remembering the crazy things we had during our no-stress secondary school life.

I am really grateful for Feli's advice. I will be strong! :D and take you as a guideline to my future...^_^ Also taking milky ann as a guideline to become a stressful student but yet, able to chase after our becoming writer dream.^_^

I contribute this post for the 2 of these amazing friends. To my gong gong Feli. And to my ex-popo milkyann

P/S: Milky, trying hard to get back the TNS feeling back....sorry for letting you worry....><

Feli, you really helped me through this. I think I will try to get my courage to let my dad know my results. And you are right, sometimes they just want the best out of us.....