Tired and frustrating!!

Well, I have being working my ass off for the pass few days.

There were 2 reasons for me to work so hard
1) I realxed myself through out the begining of the holiday and i never touched my Physic and Math a time.
2) I got panick when someone "forgot" to tell me that Physics are going to have 4 chapters to cover.

So, naturally, on Tuesday I picked up my lazy body and drag it to the study table and started to study.

Today, as usual, frustrated at most of the physic question, I heard Rain's Sad Tango. I was so happy that i think most of the info just slip by as i hummed the song.

Then it was a song sang by Celine Dion and a group of guys which i don't know what their group name is...The name of the song is "I believe" It was kinda great and well, it kinda boost your spirit...(well, for me, it does...)

Then, the winner for today's song was sang by an asshole. I can't believe Malaysia actually produced such a low class singer. When I knew that he got first place, I nearly smashed the radio and cursing to whoever voted for his song.
When ever he sings, he gets into my nerve. He sang like he is having a cold and his nostril are like colapsed in, making his noise so damn irritating that my good mood was quickly swept away!
I don't understand! Since his song is not nice, why is there people still voting for him? He is such a sisi! He is also not handsome! I can grab anyone on the street and assume that guy is much more habdsome than that so call singer.
I don't understand why Malaysian voted for him. I hate that guy. I don't like the way he sings. I really don't think he deserves to be a singer.

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Well, as pathetic i was, I diverted my anger to a singer, which was a pain on the arse for a very long time already. Sorry to his fans, but, Boo to you this sucker!

Anyway, exam is next week and I still got 2 more physic chapter to cover and 4 chapters of maths which i didn't even touch. I am cursing hard right now. But still, i am not in front of my study desk. Instead, I am in front of the computer, blurting out all my negative energies.

I am a pathetic person. I cared too much about my result while actually i am already immuned to the sadness of getting the worst result.
Maybe what i cared is whether am I going to get scolded today. Or tomorrow. Or in the future.

It is so damn pathetic. But i have no where to run but to face it.

I am just hoping that all these things actually teaches me things. Orelse....Well, if i still have the negative energy in me, I maybe crash a few things. If my negative energies are used up, then i will be down a few weeks and............................................I don't know......stand up again? Stay the same?

Me talking crap liao. Headache now...

無奈。。。

我姐姐曾說過﹐高中三的友情是最持久的。
但﹐我認為這只是個一平淡的友情。
沒激情﹐沒火花。
感情就像沖淡了的茶。

還記得剛來時﹐每人都混成一團﹐
有說有笑﹐有八卦的事絕對會分享。
有午餐﹐一起去吃。
這熱情﹐只持久半年吧?
半年後﹐各有各的朋友﹐
各有各的避風港。
一起補習的一班﹐
一起做 project 的一班﹐
一些就不屬於任何組﹐
自由自在的﹐到處漂流﹐
尋找一個新的避風港﹐
尋找一個\能讓他開心的地方﹐
尋找一個可以與他分享心裡故事的人。
但﹐要找這麼一個人那麼簡單嗎?

曾有人說: “我們的這一班是最好的﹐大家都那麼的親近﹗”
那今天我想說: “你在做夢嗎? 世界正在改變當中﹐你還在高唱’友誼長久’ 嗎?”
沒有感情是永遠的火熱﹐
感情只有變淡的份兒。
有些人就是無法到達你心的深處﹐
無論你如何勉強自己敞開心房﹐
那人終是無法靠近你已開了鎖的心。
我相信緣份﹐
我也相信緣份有結束的一天。
只要我肯﹐我們之間的緣份就可以繼續﹐
成為一個美好的回憶與美好的未來。
只要我不放棄敲進你的心﹐
我們的緣份將繼續。
只要我累了﹐
別指望我會來與你心與心的接觸。
我們只會是個普通朋友。
我的笑與怒與哀都與你無關。
我們只需掛著虛假的笑容﹐
面對對方﹐客氣的笑了笑﹐
接著﹐各走各的地平線。

我認為我在高中所認識的朋友是最棒。
因為他們都好天真﹐
他們能了解我的痛。
簡單一句的點破我的不安于寂寞﹐
隨後陪在我身邊。
雖有些人說他們好幼稚﹐
但﹐他們的關心是最真誠的。
他們會珍惜我﹐
他們會與我訴苦﹐
隨後﹐每個人都會在那兒支持我。

感情不能勉強﹐
有時﹐就是合不來。
我是個懶人﹐
我不會勉強一個沒未來的感情。
我會親自割斷一切﹐
在往後的日子﹐
回頭看一看﹐
可惜這份感情﹐
卻為自己的瀟灑而喝彩。。。
小龍貓著

Exam Again! How I hate them...

It's been a long while sicne I have blogged. Cause I was busy doing homeworks and also i cannot go online exceot on Friday and Saturday. Usually, I cannot stay for an hour. So, naturally, I didn't get to blog...

Everything is like normal. Stress is flying everywhere whereever I go and went downhill for a week a few weeks back. But, I found out a new thing about myself. I found out that when the exams are near, I tend to drift off to have fun. Usually at that time, I will be doing my homework, scribbling things all around the paper. But, now, I am lying on the bed, reading novels and re-reading my comics....I mean, Why Am I doing this? is it that I have a automatic button that tends to push down and make me to enjoy myself while i should be stressing out, studying? I don't know...Today I tried to stick my butt on the chair to do Mathematic questions. But it turns out I wanted to rush out and scream my head out. It ended up me, holding a comic in my hand and lying on my bed, having the luxury of looking at handsome 2D guys in Dear Boys.

Furthermore, lately, I was quite stress out by one of person in the school. For god's Sake! Don't be so damn fake! If you want me to do it, Just say it out loud! Don't drag me all the way through the whole big damn circle only then you ask me to do it! I am a busy person! I have a life. I don't have time doing all your things since I can only use my computer on weekends. So, Buzz off sucker! Don't anger me. Or else you will regret. As the secretary, I have many information in my hands. When I am stressed out, I don't know what I will do. I will resign and all the information about all the reports and letter will be wiped out by me. So, don't push me to the brink. I swear that I will make you regret it.

Well, that did come out well huh? Just frustrated about that person. Eventhough i know that person won't read my blog. I just want to express my feelings. Don't bug me.

I hate being accused of things I didn't do.
I hate being betrayal.
These are the things that will push the " I-am-going-to-make-you-regret" button. So, be careful with it. Don't push it.

Why am I doing this? I should be posting something else! But, what the heck, live along with it. It's not my fault that all of it burst out. It is because of stress and those peoples.