Happy Chinese New Year to you guys!

Today is the day before Chinese New Year. My uncle and aunty from Australia came to KL and we invited them to our reunion dinner. ^_^

Since we didn't do our spring cleaning earlier, all of us have to wake up early and start to scrub, scrub, and scrub. I started to clean my place and hide my whole stack of rubbish at the next door and went on cleaning the toilet.

At here, I would like to say a very many thank you to who ever invented the gloves...Or else I won't have the courage to scrub clean the whole toilet...

It took me an hour to finish cleaning up and I was having running nose. The mucus was dripping down my nose when I was cleaning the toilet...Omg...That is so suffering...

At last, I finish cleaning one toilet and too exhausted to scold/bully my sisters...But, before I can rest, my father asked me to clean the other toilet....o.o

Well, picked up the brush and off i go again to the other toilet and scrub, scrub, scrub....till my leg aches...

Today recieved many new year sms..Haha~most of it are touching and funny....All my friends went back to their hometown already. While I stay at KL, waiting fora day for me to roam around, collecting ang pow from my relatives and friends...:P

Well, after cleaning the toilets, went out to help my brother in white wash. Me and the younger sis squat at there, painting and looking at the white wash makes me think of Memoirs Of A Geishs...So, the crazy me actually painted the nails and the hand white...:P

After white washing the walls, I have diffeculties to wash the stupid paint of....-_-lll So, the moral of the story is don't paint yourself in white. You will have trouble cleaning it off~:P

My uncle and aunty came and we started our reunion dinner. The dinner was fun. Cause my uncle is a very funny person. One of the story he told us was hillarious.Well, not the story actually,it's his comment that make us laugh.

He said that there was this young Asian girl who was going to marry a white man. But the white man died before the wedding ceremony can proceed. Well, it seems that the guy had lung problems or what....

Our reaction was "Luckily the girl haven't marry the guy huh?"

But his point of view was, "No, it is no lucky. She should have marry the man first, then when he dies, at least she have the fortune inherited to her..."

"...."

I was quite stunt, but later i laugh like hell! Well, maybe in Australia they have different point of view compare to us at here.

Now, they are sitting outside while I am here typing this blog...Why? Cause me is a bad bad girl...:P I want to roam around the streets of KL! The cheong sam is suffocating me!!!I want to change to another more comfortable T-shirt!!! *sobs~*

Anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! MAY YOU ALL HAVE LUCK IN DOG YEAR!!!!><

I am so excited now...Gambate in collecting ang pow and finishing homeworks oh~ Mwahahah!!!

Many thanks

I would like to say a very big thanks to those who gave me advice when i was lost whether should i take 5 subject or 4.
Thanks su-ann, for giving me the courage to go on and believe in myself. You are a great friend with a very good talent.

Thanks feli, for leaving your encouragement to me after we didn't meet for half a year. I am very happy to see you. I am also happy that you encourage me to take 5 subjects.

Thanks pei yun, my beloved tomato which encourage me to take bio which makes me harder to decide which i should take~:P But, I am happy with your kind of way to comfort me. Always love you for that.

Thanks swee luo, for giving me the advice, which I really appreciate.

Thanks chi yee a.k.a. my grandson, who gave me the advice. I am really touched.

Thanks my dear son tien rern which ask me to believe in myself. I will try my best.

Thanks to zheng dao, who provide his consulting session which i haven't go...

Thanks to Jia Wen, which say this is what friends are for. Well, thanks. Appreciate it.

I thank you all for being with me during the worst period of my day. Friends for ever.

And also some other friend which call or sms me when i am lost. I thank you them for giving their precious time to me. I love you guys.

Thing in the future are unpredictable. Maybe we will become strangers after a few months, but the sweet memory for you all once being my friend will stay in my heart.

I Want to Cry...Do you mind?

I really want to cry now...Yesterday after discussing with my father and my brother, I decided to take 5 subjects for my STPM.

I actually didn't have the courage to do all 5 but with my brother and my father's encouragement, I gain my confidence to charge to the so called battlefield to try to excel in my studies.

It is January and I believe if I pay more hardwork on my homework and do more past year question, I can pull it through.

But, today, my confidence was shattered to pieces...

I went to the supervisor's room to tell her that i am taking 5 instead of 4 subjects.

Her reaction was "Why do you want to take 5?"

I said that I want to take 5 cause I am interested in Biology and I am planning to take it.

I never meant to score A in my bio actually. Maybe it is just a mere satisfaction that I want to have.

Then she asked "What course are you taking?"

I answered "Chemical Engineering."

There was another ex-student at there and he interupted "You are taking chemical engineering and you are taking bio just for interest?"

I just smiled...I don't know what am I suppose to reply.

Then, the supervisor said "You are going jeopardise your future because of your interest?"
And yet again, I smiled.

I think the supervisor didn't notice I understand cantonese and said "Gik xie yan!" (Go and ask your friends if you don't understand..)

I nearly laugh..cause she repeated it for twice when I just smiled and didn't give her any reaction.

I pretend that I didn't understand and stand at there. Still insisting in my decision.

She was nagging about 4.0 in CGPA and I think she didn't know that I am not planning to get A for my Bio...Like I say..just for my satisfaction...

It is like making an awful decision heh?

What actually hurt me is that she said " If you drop your Bio, you can at least get an A for your maths. Believe me, I am teaching you Maths and I know that now you can't get an A. If you use your time to study Bio to do my maths, I can assure you will get an A for your maths."

Awww..That hurts...

After the whole lot of things, I finally say "Actually I am a very stuborn."

And the teacher said "Yes. I can see that."

After all that thing, she didn't give me the form to register. She asked me to go and consult my form teacher.
DUH! I can guess what my form teacher is going to say already. I am not willing to break my record for crying in the school. I want to be stronger.

The reason I smiled through out the session because I know if I talk, I will cry. I don't wish to show my weakness...Well, this is after an experience I have gone through which teach me never to cry in front of anyone that are going to make you feel sorry. They will keep on punching you in the stomach until you can't stand it.

Anyway, end of the discussion, she took the whole stack of paper away as if i am going to snatch it from her and shoo me away.

I was very very upset...But I controlled my emotion before I went into the class room.

After that, the whole day I seem to be very tired. I can't laugh like usual and I just want to roll into a ball and cry or sleep it through.

Even in MUET, I also can't say a thing. I feel exhausted. But I tried to get into the group and after I say one sentence, I was cut off.

Nevermind. I don't care. But, really, some of them are dominating the discussion. I am saying SOME.

After school, went to CS meeting for a while cause I have to rush back home to take care of my sick sister.

On the bus, I started to think. Will it be better if I only have 4 subjects? Maybe I can concentrate more and MAYBE if miracle happens I can get 4.0.

On the way home, I decided it is better for me to take 4.

I reach home and told my brother about it before he goes out. And he said "I don't know you. It is your own fault for not doing your best in the holidays and didn't do well in your exam the year before. You will be bullied like that for the rest of your life if you stay like this."

OK. That helps only a little bit. It makes me feel more depress.

My mum came home. I was lying on the chair, feeling exhausted. I told her about what happen.

She agree on my supervisor's opinion.Ok, that helps a little bit.

My dad came home, and I told him. This is the hard part.

He was furious actually. He said why can't I register for 5? Don't I have the privilage to choose my subjects?

Yeah, he is right.

My mother argued. I think she thinks 4 is best for me.

All of a sudden, my dad roar. And loudly he said "Whatever lar! You do what you want to do!"

I was stunt. I am innocent...I nearly cried again..But, pride make me go up and open the chemistry text book and look through the book without remembering the content.

I am very confused now. I don't know what I should do or what I shouldn't do.

The path is split into half and I have to decide my future.

I am very depress now.

Cause since my father and brother can get through the 5 subjects, but why can't I?

Cause I am stupid? Cause I am not determine enough? Cause my learning skill sucks?

I don't know. I fell asleep at 8 0'clock. I am tired.

Woke up at 10. Didn't have my dinner. I am too tired to pick up the spoon and chew my food.

Online till now. Feeling sorry for not studying.

Next week is the exam and I am blogging this.

I think I am crazy already.

Do you mind telling me what should I do?

I am lost. Care to take me out of the maze?

I am now going to coil myself up and weep and sleep through it.

Hoping tomorrow I can stand up again and face the future with faith and optimist.

P/S: Shi Fu, sorry to tell you, the subject I am dropping is not physic. Is biology. So, wish me luck.

New Year and New hope?

Well, it was just yesterday new year and we are suppose to have new hopes and a new start. I was quite excited at new years eve. Don't know why. Maybe it was fun counting down with your friends online huh? Haha~but..the frustrating thing is that the post that i have write in the morning was cut short! DARN! All my appreciation, my hatred and all my new year hopes are all deleted! Grr~But at least the good thing is that someone won't see me write bad things about it and it won't be heart broken heh? :P Anyway, I was wondering actually why am I so excited since this year is going to make me suffer? Which remionds me, everytime when i am stress, i tend to laugh like a crazy woman and feel happy...Whether is this good or not? I wonder..:P Next year is STPM year. Another year or the second chance for me not to let my parents and my siblings hope down into the drain. It is time for me to get up and do my best. I am wishing hard hat this year i wil have a great determination and will concentrate on my studies instead of story books and also comics. I think I can have some of the entertainment though..:P Just hoping that i won't get too crazy on it.. :3 I just wish fo the best of this year. I can feel that it is going to be hell...
So, what I wish to say here is that..
Hell, here I come!! >o< And prepare to accept the evil side of me..cause i am so going to change hell to a circus if i am pushed to the craziness side! ^_^
If anyone care to join me, tell me...Haha~Let the hell world rock!!! *ROAR!!!* *waving flags around and jumping like a monkey up and down..* I am crazy already....sobs...
Hope you guys have a great year!! ^_^ You all have all my best wishes!! ^_^