Goodbye for now...^^ Till we meet again...

The loneliness is creeping from behind. I can feel the coldness of it overwhelming me bit by bit as the day pass by. Though I looked clam on the surface of my face, inside, there is turmoil of feeling. Fill with sorrow, happiness and no doubt, the feeling I fear the most, parting with things that are dear to me.

This feeling was becoming more and more intense as the day pass by. I have so many things to do, yet so little time.

I have been successfully enrolled into UM. Everybody is going to Sabah, Sarawak, Penang and also Johor… when shall we meet again? Though some are coming back to Malaysia, but, only one… feeling lonely as the minute pass by.

Though some of us are still staying at Kuala Lumpur, but how often are we going to able to meet with each other?

Are there any chances that we can sms each other and have a spontaneous gathering?

Are there any more chances that we shall roam in Petaling Street, browsing through novels, making a whole mountain of books falling down like dominoes?

Is there any more chance that we shall running across the street, with eyes gleaming with happiness when we see a comic shop or smelling the cool fragrance of Soya milk drifting towards us during a hot and humid day?

Is there any more chance that we shall sit in Green Hut or Grand vessel, flinging our money away once in a while just for the sake of having a nice meal and a nice place to chat uncontrollably?

Is there any more chance that we shall run away from the school as soon as the bell rings and sit in Mc Donald, telling each other stories and go back only when we are satisfy for that day?

I don’t know whether we are going to have this privilege anymore. But I do believe that one day, we will surely meet. Though time might have change us, but I think we can still have fun together, remembering the old days where we are so close to each other, the wonderful dreams that we make together. ^^

I will miss you all dearly. Even though everyone say that I am lucky that I can stay at KL and stay near to my house, but I can assure you that as soon as I step my foot on the ground of the place that will give me another phase of life, I will weep in my heart. For, I shall have to deal with loneliness, seeing at the black sky, shimmering with the lights of the lamp post, knowing that though my home is near, but it is so difficult to get near to it…

My friends, we shall meet one day again. While on foreign land, I wish you all well and have fun at the University. We shall meet different kind of people and gain much more experience than the experience that we have gain for the last 2 years in form 6 or even for the last 20 years of our life. Just remember the carefree days we had together. Sometimes, the betrayal that hurts you seem to be so far away now since you are now walking away from the memory that kept you in grudge for so long. Seeing those people that I sometimes tend to detest now seems to be a far away thing that I can look and will not get hurt by their words and gestures… Time, really can heal wounds. But, can time heal the loneliness that everyone is going to experience soon?

Do take care and good bye for now. I shall miss you all from the bottom of my heart and hope that I shall be able to meet people as good as you guys…Good bye and…darn…I am feeling teary now…

Well, words from ama for those who are my family members in St John. Rock on and survive! Smile and walk through the path no matter how difficult it is. When you are tired, stop and look at the big blue sky. Let your heart be as big as the universe that you are gazing at…^^

Words from husband for my beloved wives…my pretty wives, do be careful at your uni…Your hubby will be staying at KL and won’t be going anywhere at this moment…so, do sms me sometimes to tell me how you all are doing ya...will always love you all! (Psssst…you are all my favourite friends forever! XD)

To my hubbies!!! SOB!!! I shall miss you all a lot!! I shall dream every one of you when I am free! Wait for my resurrection!! Sob~ BTW, I added some more hubbies…but no time to tell you guys now…tell you when I am free ya~ ^^

Adios freedom! And adios my friends! Have a wonderful university life!!! ^^ NO regrets!!!

Yo. Mina Hisasiburi dana~ ^^

First and foremost…I am so sorry for the false alarm!! ><>0<>

Most people think that I disappear for a long time because I didn’t go online that frequent now. Never appear in MSN and also never update my blog…Well, my dears…I didn’t go online that often anymore because…I am watching lots and lots of anime now!! XP Well, usually during online I will watch some anime and I won’t be able to concentrate on chatting while watching anime. That is why I do not appear in MSN. I always pay much more attention to the anime rather than to anyone else…XD

Then, my friend borrowed me some more anime!!! XD I am such a happy person~~ I am living in an anime haven!!! XP I am so engrossed in the anime until I do not use the computer anymore.

The Law of Ueki is a really nice anime!!! I watch until I weep when the anime finally ended…such a sweet ending and touching~~~ *sobs~~~*

I fell in love with the main character Ueki Kousuke…sighs~~~

Oh yeah, the main topic of this post is actually…I am finally having my driving lesson!!! ^^ I forgot I told who before, but anyway, I have cleared the boring and tiring undang-undang courses and now I am starting to have my lessons! ^^

Actually it is suppose to be a feeling mixing with fun and scary for I never drive before. I was so worried that I will crash onto people and worry more that I do not know how to drive and get scolding from the teacher. Have I mentioned before that the teacher is a total bastard in my opinion? Well, I don’t like learning to drive from him. But what can I do? That is the only driving school available near my house. And by the way, it is way much expensive than other driving schools. (Not fair!!><)

Anyway, it all started quite well. He took me to his shop and taught me how to change clutch and then he went off to have his breakfast. Since I never drive before, it was quite difficult for me to be familiar with the car. I always get nervous while changing the clutch. By then, he came back and asked me to drive to my housing area.

At first he started to ask me what to do and etc. Nervously, I answered some of the questions correctly and yet sometimes my head just went blank and don’t know what to do. Of course he took the opportunity to tease me. But I calmed my nerves. I don’t wish to argue with him while I am driving on the road. Who knows what will happen when I go berserk? I love my life more than the hatred towards him. After all, little teasing only, I can take it!!! *burn!!!*

After a few turns around the area, he asked me to drive by myself. I was so nervous that sometimes I forget to let go of the clutch and let the car move. And he keeps on pestering on me, saying “What are you doing? Didn’t you practice just now? Let go of the clutch lar! So stupid!”

“…….” At that very moment, I can assure you that my nerve nearly broke and tried to punch that bastard. BUT! Chuan Ping! You can do it! Be patient with this bastard! Grrr!!!!

When I took a turn, I am not use to turning the steering and often didn’t get the corner right in time and that guy started to say “ What lar you! Turn! What are you afraid of?! Turn the bloody steering!” (That guy is actually scolding me in Cantonese which is much more insulting than the words I am using now.)

I had it! ><>

*Nerves are breaking all around…I am so going to burst any minute now…*

I didn’t say a thing and looked at the road. Well, I think my usual facial expression did the work for me. I need not to say a thing but I believe my face have the letters writing out “Shut your F****** mouth you this bastard!” Hell! Does he think that I am a genius in driving? I only practiced for an hour and he expect me to know how to drive smoothly?!! ARGHHHH!!!! ><>

I also made the car suddenly stop because I let loose of the clutch too soon. Ended up I kena marah again! ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!><

Damn angry now…wish me luck on the next lesson. Hopefully my dad’s advice will stick to my head when the bastard makes me angry again… “Driving is an important responsibility to you. People that are short temper are bad drivers. Remember to control your temper.” Sigh…yes…control, control… T.T

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Nearly bursting out loads of foul word

CP.

Hey...Still alive here...

Right…it has been a long time since I have updated my blog…nothing in particular. Just that suddenly one day, I am too lazy to type out my feelings and my daily routine. I just wanted to hide myself in my room, covered in my cozy little bed and sprawling on it, reading the newest book that I bought.

But, I was busy last week actually…can you believe it? I was working for my dad! Shock huh! For me, this parasite is willing to get out of the shell and worked for 5 days…incredible…XP

Well, I noticed that I owed my friends a lot of post that I promised to post it but never did it.

So, to make my life an easier and more peaceful one, I will like to let you guys choose what updates you want about me for the past few weeks. You choose one, I update that. You don’t choose, I have no need to update it. Fair enough? XP

1) Went to work for my dad last week. Everyday I have to crawl out from my warm and cozy blanket and dressed up to work... (Want to know more what happen? Bite me.)

2) It is the biggest book fair! And guess what, of course I went! Well, it was a hell in the sense that I brought it to myself. (Want to know how I suffer through it? Yeah~ just tell me whether you want this juicy story or do you prefer the other ones)

3) I have been caving in my house, watching lots of anime that I borrowed from my friend. (Nothing much really. I will definitely bore you with all my rumblings of animation.)

4) Went out for a date. (Think again. Use your brain. Do you really think I will go out for a date? Yet, if you wish to know who I dated, tell me.)

5) Finally went for my undang-undang test. (This post will fill with various kind of violence and cursing. I won’t mind writing this. You know how screwed up my personality is…)

6) Went for my friend’s graduation day on cosmetic class (Not bad, the memory is still fresh and warm in my head now)

So, you can only choose one. I don’t mind if you don’t want to read my crap. Well, my tomato wife, I doubt that you will choose any of this huh? I think I wrote it all in the love letters we are sending to each other…Hmmm…

Ok, have fun in choosing which post you would like to have. Deadline is this Monday~~~ after that, none of the request will be taken in~ Mwahaha!!!

The post that I have promised…I will try to finish it ASAP! ^^

Chao for now dears…Since somebody say that I have been quiet lately…XP I have done some ruckus here, to proof that…I am still alive dears!! ^^