Boring!!!

I admit! I am a bad girl...I haven't done my homework....AGAIN...But, I don't want to stay in the room! Cause I know I will fell asleep when i flip open the chemistry text book. God knows how much more homework that I need to do...
Plus mathematics....Please! free me from this misery!!
Maybe because knowing that tomorrow is a holiday, so....I tend to do things last minute...that's why i online on the sunday night, typing crap....My life is becoming dull again...I sure do hope that I can indulge in some anime now..unfortunately, There were no naruto anime for me to drool on cause somehow, I cannot download the animes....darn it...
Anyway, Naruto's 2nd movie in DVD is out...and they are planning to have the third movie! With KAKASHI!!ARGH!!!~~ Anticipating it everyday! :D Although when i read the sypnosis of the story i think it's kinda retarted...:P Ahahha~But, watch first, comments later~:D

OK..since I am so darn bored..I think I will swift to other places...chao! Muacks...anf lots of love..for reading my crap~ *evil grins*

P/S: Sorry that the chatter box is not available..cause I am just too lazy to re-install the programme...-_-lll

MUET-the day before the exam

HAHHAHAHA!!! I wanted to leugh cause I want to cry already...Tomorrow is the day. The day to show my mother that my english standard had been improved. I wished to have a band 5. And i am hoping hard right now. I am suppose to prepare very very hard right now. But instead I am sitting here yapping around again...BAD!!!I tend to do other things when i am stress...wonder is it good for me to distress myself first....

Anyway, came online just to find some inspiration. Because lately I am not in a depressed mood. So, it is quite difficult for me to cultivate the feeling and produced a crazy essay which i favoured most. But, unfortunately, there were none of the articles that inspired me...I am doom now... Just hoping that tomorrow's factual essay won't be too difficult for me to puke out some of the stupid darn facts.

Anyway, friends, do your best in MUET. Cause the worst is yet to come.:P Ok...fine..the best is yet to come...Do our best and get it over with! :D

~怨啊~

我在慚愧中。。。
我此時此刻應該在房裡奮鬥的完成功課。 但我卻在這裡胡言亂語。我有好多東西要做﹐但時間不夠。
事件一﹕我還沒給老爸簽成勣單。
事件二﹕下星期四﹐我家的物理老師發神經﹐要來個小考。天知道我上她課時是右耳進﹐左耳出。這次我完了。。。。時間不足給我準備。。。
事件三﹕MUET接近了﹐但英文程度還是在糞坑裡。下星期再不補救﹐一個對咱家"輕易而舉"的band 5將東諸江流了。。。。。
事件四﹕本人賭錢賭得太兇﹐錢花光了。。。。開玩笑﹗連成本都沒﹐怎麼賭。。。。?但欠人錢假不了。。唉~~~
事件五﹕原想投稿給那Listen to Him 的單元﹐但因自己懶惰﹐趕不上了。。。。怨啊﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗我好想參加的啊﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗鳴鳴。。。

這種種使我怨啊~~天﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗為什麼您要這樣對我啊~~~
*扒地﹐大聲嚎咷大哭﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗*

Successful life?

"What is a successful life?"
Honestly speaking, when my MUET teacher asked this question, the answer that pop into my mind was a good answer for the majority, not my answer.
I answered my teacher that a successful life is leading a happy life. While I was explaining what is a happy life to me, I suddenly realise that I wasn't answering the question truthfully. I am just giving an answer that everyone maybe hoping to have.
This made me to think about this question for 2 days. The essay that she requested for us to write I didn't evn touched it yet. There are reasons for me to dlay my work. That is:
1) I got many homeworks screaming for me to look through them. And if possible, FINSH them.
2) I can think of nothing. My creative juice seems to be ouot of stock for now.
3) I can't think what is a successful life.
Really! What is a successful life? Having a paper qualification? Well, that maybe one of it. But won't it be too dull? All your life you are chasing the same dream that others dream for. Are we programmed to do all these kind of things? Maybe, or maybe not. Maybe we just don't want to be an outcast in the society, we just follow the others footstep.

Leading a happy life? Really, when i answer this, I was a bit stunt. Because when I told my friend that leading a happy life is a successful life, I found the inner me saying, "What a lame answer. Do you really think so?" For others maybe true, but for me, I started to wonder. A happy life? What is it? Laugh and have fun? Don't know why, the inner me just don't accept this answer.

Until now I still cannot find an answer. Maybe my thoughts are not matured enough to think of something that deep and sophisticated. What a shallow person I am. Haha...maybe really, I am a shallow person...

I think I have praise this friend of mine for too much already. I don't mind saying it again...:D Recently I went to her blog and found out that her life was as meaningful as before. Whenever I read her blog, I can really feel that she was expressing the true person in her and she was expressing what we usually wanted....Well, girl, I have to say that if next time you change your mind in becoming a writer, please do remember to let me read your book first. As long as it is not law facts......I will faint if you ever present me any facts book...Science facts are already too much for me to bear....:D

Muscles aching....sobs....

After working my ass out in applying the permission to go to Desa Water Park trip, I screwed it up by forgetting to let the Penolong Kanan HEM to sign the letter...-_-lll But, luckily during this trip, nobody was lost or injured seriously...

Anyway, we went to Desa Water Park yesterday by a van and arrive at there at maybe 10 something. After everything is settle down, we went into the changing room to change clothes. Because I was wearing shorts and I think that is ok to play in water, I did not change. I stood there to wait for Sara, Ee Sheng and Charlene. I was eating tuna sandwich when suddenly 2 GUYS came in and went straight into the changing room!!!OMG! All of us were shock and stood there doing nothing. When both of the guys squeeze themselve into one changing room, I have to urge to kick the damn door down and ask them to leave. But, better don't create problems...Although some of the people knocked the door and ask them to leave, they still stay in the changing room and left only after they have finifh changing their clothes...0.0 Well, they have kinda good body shape, so my hypothesis is that both of them are GAY~HMPH! that's for going into a girl's changing room!!Damn homos...:P

Actually when I saw the shock wave, I was so happy and I wanted to rush into it and play. But, somehow, there were some kind of problem, (I didn't pay attention to it, because my attention was on the wave....sob...) and ended up we went into the pool quite late. Therefore, after playing about 20 minutes, the shock wave overed and we have to leave to other places to have fun.

There were many slides and i thought it was going to be a scary ride. But it turns out just...well, just like that. You can feel the wind blowing towards your face but it doesn't feel anything like sitting in the roller coaster.

On one o' clock, the shock wave comes again!! YA~~And this time we were equip with floats and we were having fun using all of our energy pulling the float to the deeper part of the pool and sit on it while the wave push us back to the front!! YA~~I only had a few rides, cause it feels akward to ask people to pull you in and you are having all the fun while other people were using up their energy. So, and the last hour, I was pulling my friend in and float with the float and sometimes get my head squezze in between the floats...

Overall, we had fun. But....the consequences was painful...I got sunburn! I thought that I only went black like a little red indian but it turns out I also got sun burn!! SOB!! After I went back home and looked at myself in the mirror, I found out that my face was red and also my hand!!and..oww....it hurts......SOB.....But at least we had fun huh?

The trip was fun and I didn't have this kind of fun for like god knows how long already...^_^ Furthermore, I got a peace moment of my own when the others were having fun together...I slip in to the other pool while they were playing the slide....the sky was blue and I notice that the clouds were as beautiful as before and there were many kind of shapes. Some of the shapes looks like there is going to be a tornado coming (Although that is impossible) Some looks like a painting, which makes me feel calm.

Sometimes, we have to stop and look up to the sky and enjoy your life....Sometimes, being alone is also a kind of enjoyment that you will have to learn to appreciate it.....

Souring now. Don't read if you are not mentally prepared.

Actually, I am not happy. I see the old happy-go-lucky me slipping away. But I don’t have the strength to pull it back to me and let it stay inside my soul.
I am feeling tired lately. I don’t know whether is it the stress or am I PMS- ing. But, too early for PMS huh?
I tend to get very sensitive on what the things people do or say. I just tend to snap back even though the person was innocent. But, I feel good whenever I get to scold somebody. Another kind of method to relieve the tension building up in me. Quite scary for others, but quite effective for me. Even though scolding people will make me feel better, but I still can’t go in front to somebody and scold them right? They somehow have to do something that annoys me only then I can scold the hell out of them. Maybe they are too smart; nobody dared to get near me pisses me off. Making me feel so damn imbalance now. In this post, I would like to say the F word. I just have to say it!!!
I don’t mean to scold anyone in particularly, but, I need to unleash the fucking negative energy in me. Well, that sounds great. But I think I will get a hell lot of white eyes from my friends when they read this. Cause, “This is so not chuan ping style in dealing things.”
I have to admit, they are kind of right. The old me will sit inside my room and sulk. Or worst, pick on my younger sister and scold the hell out of them. Or maybe worst than worst, I will actually plan on doing something bad. Like loitering at Leisure Mall and buy as much novel as I can afford and buy a whole lot of anime posters and feast on the handsome anime guys.
But, I can’t do this anymore. I am tired. Even the handsome anime husbands also cannot arouse me from the soreness that I am suffering. This is fucking pathetic. I cannot scold my younger sisters because lately they are being very good girls. I have no reason to scold them and not getting scolded by my mother instead. I do not sulk anymore. Because sulking needs a lot of energies. And my energies are sipping away slowly. I at least need some energy to kick some people’s ass.
They say that form 6 is tough. I think I am a very insensitive person to the environment. Only now I notice that form 6 IS tough….Slow huh?
I don’t feel happy now. I think I am drifting in the sea of soreness and where am I going to drift to? I have no idea. I don’t want to talk to any other people anymore. Having a conversation with them seems so suffering for me. Looking stupid in front of them doesn’t hurt me anymore.
I am disappointed in many things. Much more than I have ever expected. I was told to enjoy life and never regret the things you do. But saying is easy, doing is the hardest part.
I don’t care anymore. May you all rot in hell and don’t ever bother saying good bye to me. Cause I may give you a shot and send you to hell straight away.
Over and out. Don’t buzz me anymore. Assholes.


“Happily” Written by,
Chin.