Special thanks to the one that is always by my side...my dear dad...

STPM result has been out. The hectic of applying yourself into university has over…and not to mention also the trouble of getting scholarships, study loans have been settled down…FOR NOW.
Soon enough, the time will come where we have to start our schooling days again. But this time with different people around you, different kind of annoying people that will come and obstruct your way to be a nice and sweet person. Which reminds me, I have to control my hot temper…^^;;
Anyway, I have a lot of people to thanks to…
So, let’s start with the one that was always there for me even though I am a total brat like person and is patient towards me, the one that gives me a stick and also the carrot, forcing me to know the importance of knowledge of science and technology. And also letting me know the warmth of my family is giving me…

This person is my dad. I really have to say a great thanks to him. He is the one who was willing to be the bad guy and force me to study. If it is not because of him, I would be still lying in my bed, hugging my bolster, sulking away, thinking that I am the worst daughter that they can ever have and have the self-pity feeling that I need my parents and my elder sibling’s help to get a good education because I scored badly in my examination.

Though my result was not quite enough for me to get into a prestigious university, but I am still glad. If not for his help, I would have failed most my subjects.

My dear friends, you have to admit that I am really the anchor of the class, always getting C and Ds on and off during my one and a half year of studying in the school.

First of all, I really feel guilty because due to my ignorance and stubbornness, my dad actually had a hard time to persuade me to study with all my heart and not just go out and have fun with friends. I have to earn my entertainment rather then getting it just like that.

He even got migraine during the whole year, trying to make me get my grades up. This, I feel very guilty and I vowed that I have to be more mature and listen to his advice more.

Who cares that if my fellow friends will abandon me after I reject several invitations to have fun (which, some of them I am grateful that they still stood by my side although I am a total party pooper...^^) I trust my father is giving me the best of everything. Trying to reason with me that I should cut out all my entertainment and be serious of my studies.

I really owe a great thanks to him. But I am not those ‘mushy-mushy’ kind of person, so, it is difficult for me to hug my dad and say “Thank you” though he deserve the sincere thanks that comes out from my mouth. And I do not know what I can buy for him. He is a person that loves his children a lot and will scold us whenever we buy things for him. Complaining that the things are not to his taste. He earns every respect and love from us. But what can we do when he doesn’t want our present?

Therefore, I have decided to help him as much as I can. Running errands, keeping myself out of trouble, upgrading myself, learning more about computers and programmes so that when he needs help, I will be right by his side, helping him as much as I can, trying to keep the burden as light as possible for him.

So, I really hope that I will not spend his money in getting into UTAR. I really do hope that I get into local U and save as much as I can.

This, I vowed. If I ever turn my back to my family, I entrust my dear friends to knock me back to my senses and remind me of what my family has sacrificed for me, for me to become a better person, rather than a brat that roams around, having a totally useless life.

I believe most of my close friends have known what a hell I have been through with my father coaching me. ^^
After hell, there is heaven. Well, for me, the heaven was quite nice…^^

How often your elder brother does tell you that you have score well and your dad is proud of you? It is once in a life time. And I really like the feeling of it. Though there are some guilty feeling lying within, knowing that if I have started earlier in studying smart, not study hard, I will get a better grade, easier to get into university and no need to worry about whether am I going to get into a university.

Anyway, it felt nice when your brother acknowledge you a little bit…XP Though he still got complains about me knowing nothing about computer, reformatting, backing up files, etc…(Which lead to a fight the yesterday and I cried…looks like brother and sister are always meant to fight after all…^^;;) so, I would really appreciate that if someone would tell me what the heck is reformatting and back up-ing files…it is a pain in the arse when your brother just tell you to explore by yourself…snobbish brother! HMPH!!!

At least I made my dad happy that I did not failed most of the subjects…XP especially math and physics…and they were disappointed that I did not score A for chemistry…but, what the heck…it is a miracle for me to get these grades after only 2 months of truly learning and working my arse out…XP

There are more people that I want to thank too…but for now, this post is dedicated specially for my dad.

For being strict and nice to me, teaching me, enduring with my tantrums, scolding me when I am totally a jerk ass, helping me when my brother tries to make me drop more tears and dry up due to dehydration and also hardly breathing after all the mucus and tears clotted up in my nose…not a pretty sight…my pillow had all of my tears on it…maybe that is why I did not throw it away. It gives me memories…whether is it nice or not, it have memories of the hard times I had and the sweet times when I hug it in my arms, knowing that I have fulfill my family’s hope. And the next step is to get into university. Finish my degree and earn lots of money which will fill my family member’s pocket. ^^
Since I cannot say it out loud to my dad, I decided to say it out loud at here, telling everyone what a great dad I have. ^^

Thank you a lot dad. I am sorry if I ever cause trouble to you. I will learn from the mistakes I did and I promise that I will be more matured, and will give you the finest luxury in life, giving you even an acre of land if I can afford it…^^ letting you have the opportunity to rear goats, earthworms, dogs and whatever you want to have as a pet. Even a python, as long as it doesn’t slide around the area and get the goats killed…^^

I really L*** you dad…ehem…still feel a bit ‘mushy-mushy’ to say the word…you get the point…^^ *hides in the corner…*

P/S: I am also glad that I am not saying thank you and giving my dad a ‘mushy’ hug because he bought me a car, a camera or what ever…it makes me feel like I am an air head spoiled brat…XP If it offended some of the people, no need to feel offended…it is just my opinion…chill…XP