Did I forgive you? I am not sure. But I know that I won't do any revenge to you anymore.

I went to her blog because I wanted to know how is she living now.
I click on the URL cause I was hoping to read another fake story that she made up again.
I scroll down her blog, trying to find something about her to let the hatred go on.
But, when I sawa one of her post, I was stunt.
She was bullied. I should be happy because finally somebody is doing the good deed for hurting her for me. I didn't get to hurt her that much because she transfered school at the last day of our Form 2 year.
I should be happy. But when I read that she was bullied by the other guys and girls in her new school, I didn't get the thrilled of her being bullied. Instead, I feel sorry for her. All the senarios that shouldn't be happening in a Malaysia school was happening onto her. Just like those USA school where you are treated badly because you somehow get into the way of a famous person.
Reading her blog, I feel sorry for her. But, I don't know whether is it a lie. Because she had made too much lies during our 2 years of friendship. I still have doubts on her. Although this sounds bad, but I just cannot trust her anymore. Maybe I will feel pity for her. But I think deeply inside my heart I also think that served her right! Maybe I wanted revenge on her lies but I never wanted her bullied like that, being all alone in the school.
Just to feel better, I decided to say sorry to her for sending the hurting mail. I was angry at that time. I cannot bare any betrayal at that time. Or maybe now also the same. Because I make friends with all my heart. I love all my friends and hope for the best that they will love me too. I never try to cheat my friends. I never try to boast about how gracious my life was (Because it is the real thing) I don't want to become a person with a mask, making friends with a mask on my face. That is why when i knew that you were such an arrogant and spoiled kid, I was disappointed. And I was furious when you insulted my friends. You say that she was so stupid that she doesn't deserve to be in the good class. I was really really angry and heart broken for my friend that time.
But, now is the time to let go a little bit by a little bit. I decided to try to forget all your bad behaviours and try to remember all the good things we did together. But the sad thing was that there were so few of good memories that we had together. It is time to let go. Let the hatred blown off by the wind and hope that the next time we see each other again, I will feel nothing about you and become friends again in another kind of way and in another places.
Last but not least, I would like to say sorry again and again for being so mean to you after you left the school and send you that hurting mail. I will try to change my opinion on you when the day has come where both of us meet. No more vengence on you. Because I think you got the worst during your luxury year in those high class private school ( Well, I feel quite good when I know they bully you. Evil heh? Well, it is in the gene.)